2:03am

so now it's after 2 and this weekend has so far been all about love. Thursday night I worked and although I had a light assignment (no complaints there, I think God was helping out with that one) I had an emotionally draining one. I had a patient who did not get very good news, who is about to make the most difficult decision of his life, one that could very easily end it. The decision is whether to have surgery or not. If he has it, he may not make it off the table, if he doesn't have it, there is a very real chance that he could die just walking down the street, any time now.  He asked me what I thought he should do and for some reason (again I truly believe divine intervention was working on my side here cause if I had had a busier assignment I would not have had the time) I actually knew what to say to this man. I told him that he needed to take the info that he had been given by our medical staff and get a second opinion. And then, he had to have a long talk with his wife. He said someone from our staff told him that he should make his wife make the decision. I was appalled! I told him absolutely not! We talked about how this had to be either his decision or it had to be completely understood that they both agreed on the decision that was made because if he had the surgery and he didn't make it, his wife could not think it was her fault. He then proceeded to tell me all about his wife, and how much he loved her, and how he knew when he met her that she was the one, and you could just see how absolutely content this man was being married to this woman. And then we started talking about not having the surgery and how at least that way he would still be alive, and he could still have turkey on Thanksgiving and he could still open his Christmas presents and he could find someone to finish the work on the house for his wife for the craft room she wanted to have, and then well, I had to go...because I was about to start crying and honestly, I couldn't cry in front of this man, cause I think that would have been the worst thing for him. I hugged him and told him that I knew whatever decision he came to would be the best decision for him, and if he changed his mind at the very last minute, that too was okay. I told him to go with whatever his heart told him to do, and I wished him the very best luck. And then I cried the whole way home... not entirely sure what the guy in the garage thought I was crying about, but I wasn't really caring at that point either.....

And then I came home, slept for about an hour and a half, my usual when I don't have to work that night and some friends came, and we went wedding dress shopping for my friend who is getting married in October. It took us all of an hour and a half! I'd be willing to be that is record time! We went to a bridal shop that I will not name cause I can probably get sued for that but the staff member that we were assigned was not very helpful, she would have been if she had stayed in the same room with us for more than 3 seconds, but alas she did not, but honestly we had a good system going and we were having a blast so maybe it was a good thing she wasn't around! The very first dress we made her try on turned out to be the style dress she ended up getting, a-line because it was beautiful on her. Did you ever have one of those days where everything just works, and instead of asking why, you just say a quiet thank you for everything cause you really just don't want to jinx it? This was one of those deals! The dress I showed her in the catalog as a potential, was in the store, in a size that could be altered within a reasonable amount of time, for practically no money (as far as alterations go), everything fell into place... it could not have been scripted any better! It even extended to the restaurant parking lot that we went to after, we got a space, right next to the door, we were blessed all day. Truly, this day was supposed to happen, which leads me to believe that this marriage is supposed to take place, and since the bride and groom have not been a couple a very long time, and really who's to say what an appropriate time is to know when it's real and when it's not? I would say, after yesterday and everything going right, I would say, the rest is good to go.  I love it when things come together!!! Now if they would just register... I could start shopping! :-)

And today was spent with another couple of friends who are getting married. They are just so cute that it's kind of gross, and I mean that in the nicest way. We all went to London this past November for my friends 40th birthday and that's where he proposed. He was supposed to propose in Paris but she got sick and I sent her to a hospital because she was so sick and it wrecked their plans of going to another country for the weekend. Sorry guys! But St Paul's Cathedral took over as a wonderful spot for him to propose. My roomie made them a collage of pictures from London and gave it to them today as part of their wedding present. They loved it. Of course they loved it, it was a great gift. 

So this weekend was about love.... love that I have not experienced yet, someday I hope to. I haven't given up yet. My friend's October wedding is in Vegas, the same weekend that my other friend is having his bachelor party, also in Vegas. I'm not telling him where we're staying cause I know he'll try to set me up with some of his friends and I'm not sure I'm ready to partake in "what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas".... As I get older, I'm learning that I'm far more traditional than I ever would have thought and that there is nothing wrong with that. That and I promised my roommate I wouldn't get married in Vegas, this was after we were listening to a Carrie Underwood song.... yeah, cause that's so going to happen.....

well, now it's 2:47 time for me to go to bed. See you later.